
Episode #21
#21 Kristian Moore — Recovery Beyond Abstinence and Learning to Truly Heal
Kristian Moore’s recovery story challenges the idea that sobriety is the finish line. For Kristian, putting down drugs and alcohol saved her life—but lasting recovery meant confronting anxiety, depression, perfectionism, shame, and the deeply rooted belief that she was never enough. Raised in Nashville in a religious environment, Kristian struggled with anxiety and depression from an early age. After first using marijuana as a teenager, she believed she had finally found the answer to years of emotional pain. That search for relief quickly escalated into cocaine, MDMA, methamphetamine, heroin, and eventually severe alcohol dependence, leading to multiple psychiatric hospitalizations, treatment centers, and years of trying to get sober. Everything changed on December 31, 2019. Entering recovery just before the COVID-19 pandemic, Kristian found hope through connection, community, and a willingness to keep showing up—even before she fully believed recovery could work. Today, with nearly six years of sobriety, she openly discusses an often-overlooked reality: that recovery continues to evolve long after substances are removed. In this vulnerable conversation, Kristian and Jonny explore mental health, suicide, spirituality, trauma, perfectionism, boundaries, Medication-Assisted Treatment (MAT), and why recovery isn’t about following someone else’s formula—it’s about building a life worth living. You’ll Hear: * Why Kristian says she wasn’t trying to die—she was desperately searching for relief * How anxiety and depression shaped her life long before addiction * Why marijuana felt like the answer to years of emotional pain * How her addiction progressed from marijuana to cocaine, MDMA, methamphetamine, heroin, and alcohol * What it was like getting sober during the COVID-19 lockdown * Why connection became the foundation of her recovery * How AA meetings helped her long before she fully embraced the program * The role of sponsors, treatment, and community in building lasting sobriety * Why she believes recovery continues to change after years of sobriety * How perfectionism and black-and-white thinking became obstacles in long-term recovery * Why she began questioning whether recovery has to look the same for everyone * An honest discussion about Medication-Assisted Treatment (MAT), harm reduction, and reducing stigma * How setting difficult family boundaries became essential to protecting her recovery * The difference between self-destruction and self-improvement—and choosing one decision at a time * Why hope sometimes begins by borrowing someone else’s belief until you can believe in yourself Why Listen: * To better understand the connection between addiction, mental health, and emotional pain * To hear an honest conversation about depression, suicidal thinking, and finding hope * To learn why recovery is about much more than simply stopping drugs or alcohol * To understand how recovery evolves over time and why different people heal in different ways * To gain insight into harm reduction and Medication-Assisted Treatment from someone working in the field * To hear why community, vulnerability, and authentic connection remain essential long after sobriety begins * To be reminded that healing isn’t about doing recovery perfectly—it’s about continuing to grow If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction, help is available. To learn more about National Addiction Specialists and the Breaking Down Addiction podcast, visit nationaladdictionspecialists.com.






