Episode #17
I Asked God for Help And He Sent Me An Illuminati Guy. Problematic Episode 17
Send us Fan Mail Depression B**** A** almost got me again. Once again I get vulnerable and cry but that’s part of being human or whatever that one broad says Where I’m At in Life Right Now In this episode, I’m getting real, vulnerable, and probably more emotional than I expected to be. I’m talking about where I am in life right now—the good, the bad, the confusing, and everything in between. I open up about work, finances, my social life, family, and the things that have been weighing on me behind the scenes. I talk about dating again, going on dates, meeting people, and realizing that just because you can date doesn’t mean you necessarily should. I’m learning that I’d rather be alone and at peace than settle for someone just because I don’t want to be alone. I also talk about losing an old friend and the emotions that come with looking back at people and moments from your past. This episode gets extremely personal, and yes—I cry. There are things I’ve been holding in, and this was one of those moments where I needed to let them out. But I also remind myself that life isn’t always going to feel this heavy. Sometimes you have to sit with the uncomfortable moments, figure out what you actually want, and give yourself permission to not have everything figured out. And finally, we’re getting into something else that has been bothering me: people outside of the situation involving themselves in family matters when they don’t actually know what is happening behind closed doors. Whether they’re regular outsiders or family members who don’t live in the house, sometimes you need to mind your business. You can’t create narratives about a family, repeat things that aren’t true, and act like you know the full story when you’re nowhere near the situation. This is probably one of my most vulnerable episodes yet. No pretending everything is perfect. No pretending I have all the answers. Just me talking about where I am, what I’m experiencing, what I’m learning, and trying to figure out what comes next.
